going out alone...

My day up till now has been filled with sorrows and uncertainties...well not today~~

i'm going out...though i am alone, but at least i'm not depending on anyone anymore...before this everytime i go out, i will think of my best friend..it would be better if i stay to accompany...

but, why care so much about others when they care little about you..

so, yeah..i'm going out! alone...


p/s:..i'm smart, i'm good..i'm pretty sure to find other friend soon~~

that's just who i am~~

Giving up...at last~~

sometimes i feel like giving up on this so called friendship~~~ if both parties don't trust each other...i've tried my best to hold on~~but all seem in vain.. i hate losing a good friend, but what the use of it if i cannot be trusted~~ i wish the best, every time i pray..hoping that it will be answered, if not this life, the life after...

day by day, i find it hard even to reach my best friend~~  i couldn't call, because i knew that person would never return my calls, i couldn't text, cause it will be left un-replied...so what can I do?

i promise myself, this will be the last time i let myself being used...no more trying to impress somebody who cares less about me..no more the first one in life where i am always the last resort...

i am soon to begin my new life..maybe it's time to turn over a new leaf~~a new friend perhaps, the one who appreciate me for who i am? ..maybe a love life?

only God knows best..Allahuakbar~~Allah The Almighty~~